Definitions of being a mother

When I was younger the number of children I wanted changed from six to zero. I looked at mothers and they looked like they had been in World War 2. The funny part was their children looked like they lived in palaces.
When, I had my first son, my initial thoughts were What is all the fuss about? I recall feeding him, bathing him and thinking this is not so hard. I could take him out to the park all day, and go clubbing all night long. Life seemed too good to be true. There were these constant debates, even now about whether to be a stay at home Mum or go to work etc. Those debates stopped when it was clear that I was going to be a single Mum.
The day it hit me, the definition of being a mother, was when I was preparing for him to go to school. It was one year prior to his first enrolment date, this left me with no options. I thought I was prepared listing him the year before the school year. There were Mum´s that had listed their child since they were pregnant. My first thought – What was I doing? It was too soon then?
From that moment onwards it was a constant struggle, not only for schools, but life in general. This is when I felt the Motherhood. This is when I began to question, my role as a mother. I had to think about his future, and how he would get there. Morales that I had to install in him, influences and choices I had to make for his life. Before, he went to the park and played with anyone. As he grew older, I would carefully watch who he was hanging around people and think, Do I want you to be my son’s friend?
I would like to hear from other mothers ‘or fathers’ and if they can relate to this day, i.e. when the definition of being a mother or father began for them…

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